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Empath

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Ok people- I highly recommend you give this book a listen to as I’m sure it will resonate with you or am guessing you have people in your life who are true Empaths. 
I usually prefer to read books rather than listen to them but I really got a lot out of this book! So I am sharing it with you.  (Empath by Elliot Harper, narrated by Sam Slydell -Try Audible and get it here: https://www.audible.com/pd?asin=B07S6CHPNP&source_code=ASSORAP0511160006 )
I think I’ve always known that I am a sensitive soul and person and that I feel things more deeply than most and that I understand the world through energy, but I don’t think that I realized that I am an Empath.

And I don’t just mean I’m a little bit Empathic. I am empathic to a high degree.I pick up things people don’t even know they are giving off energetically and they can be miles away! I’mnot exactly sure how such a thing can be measured, but after listening to this book I feel my conclusion or assessment is accurate. I think that I am j…

Apologies and Inadaquacies

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Last night, just before class started, a student asked me how teaching was going now that the kids were back in school, or something like that. I went on to explain that all was the same because my kids don't go to school and that we homeschool. I must have went into all the reasons why we homeschool because I usually feel the need to explain.

Well, as that conversation came to a close, a new student, an older, wiser woman, came over to get her stack of blankets and looked over at me and said, "You don't ever have to apologize for homeschooling your kids."

That statement stopped me cold. I had not even realized I had in fact apologized for our choice to homeschool. In that moment, I felt such a sadness, and I really just wanted to bolt out of the room, lock myself in the bathroom and weep. I wanted to weep because on some level it has felt like this choice is not good enough. And let's face it, the majority of the world does not think well of homeschooling or h…

Showing Up No Matter What~

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I'm sitting on the couch, just home after teaching my Sunday morning class. And here I am trying to regroup and gather my shaky heart. It was hard to get up and show up and teach this morning after hearing about the 2 mass shootings that just occurred in the last 24 hours. It's not like these incidents are surprising anymore because these mass shootings are happening so often. But as I sat in the quiet  with the news of the shootings and the sadness I was feeling, I noticed there was a part of me that did not want to feel anything so that I could focus on getting ready for my class. But not matter what I did to redirect my heart and my mind, I couldn't stop or ignore the sadness. All I could do was just sit with it, acknowledge and feel it. So that's what I did. I sat, my cup of coffee in one hand and the other hand on my heart, and I let the tears and sadness wash over me. 

After a few tears, I dried my eyes. I got up and splashed my face with cool water and sat back d…

Coffee Meditation

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Coffee Meditation~

Sitting and breathing
and sipping my coffee on the couch with my eyes closed  and my ears open.
I listen to the birds  chirping and cooing outside as the light of the day rises.
I listen and breathe in all the sounds  and the moment as it is.
I hear the dog whining at the back door. Her nails clicking  on the hard tile floor as she paces back and forth waiting for me to open the door.
I sit with my racing mind- frantically trying to figure out  why last night went awry.
I feel the worry wobble around in my head and feel a tinge of sadness  as I realize and admit  that my frustration and tired got the best of me.
A million apologies fill my head as I sit and sip my coffee and I slow my breathing down.
My mind is racing and compiling  list after list  of all the things  I need to do today to prepare for our trip ahead. 
But I just sit I sip  and I breathe.
I just sit back and let my mind go. My thoughts are unruly and wild- like a kite being tossed around in the wind trying to find a current of air to float…

A Return, A Review And Some Reflections

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It’s been a long time since I’ve taken the time to sit down and write. I’ve wanted to sit and write but just haven’t had the clarity or the time or the right way to put into words all that has gone on since my  last post.

I have been writing in a journal regularly but it’s mostly in the form of practice, of just bringing myself to the page to share the day to day stuff and to get things off my mind.

Honestly, I don’t know where or how to begin as I still feel out of sorts mentally and emotionally. And because I’m still processing so much internally, I’ve been having a hard time verbalizing things.  It’s been this way since I came back from my Level 2 Restorative yoga training in late August with Judith Lasater.  But I will do my best to explain and share here.

It was a big deal for me to go to the training and learn and to be away from home for a week. It probably wasn’t the best time for me to go as I was already feeling pretty tender hearted and overwhelmed before I went. But I don…

Loosening the Grip

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I got up this morning and it was so quiet and the house felt so empty. It was just me and the dog and the cat curled in bed. Jason and the kids left for Flagstaff around 4:30 yesterday afternoon. They spent the night Flagstaff and were up and on their way to Colorado early this morning, so it's just me and the pets.

I decided not to go with them as I am scheduled to teach a Restorative yoga and Acupuncture Restshop with Maryann this coming weekend and there are things I want to do and get done while Jason and the kids are away for a few days. But today, I am tired and slow and not feeling like doing much of anything. I did manage to get up and go walking with the dog as I usually do each morning and I've showered.  Other than that, I'm not feeling very motivated. And oddly enough, I miss my husband and kids. And even though I miss my little family, I am grateful for a moment to rest and decompress,  and to not have to do anything for anyone right now.

 So it looks like t…

The Fear of It~

Piglet?" said Pooh.

"Yes Pooh?" said Piglet.

"Do you ever have days when everything feels... Not Very Okay At All? And sometimes you don't even know why you feel Not Very Okay At All, you just know that you do."

Piglet nodded his head sagely. "Oh yes," said Piglet. "I definitely have those days."
"Really?" said Pooh in surprise. "I would never have thought that. You always seem so happy and like you have got everything in life all sorted out."
"Ah," said Piglet. "Well here's the thing. There are two things that you need to know, Pooh. The first thing is that even those pigs, and bears, and people, who seem to have got everything in life all sorted out... they probably haven't. Actually, everyone has days when they feel Not Very Okay At All. Some people are just better at hiding it than others.
"And the second thing you need to know... is that it's okay to feel Not Very Okay At All. It can …