Awake and Dreaming

* Artist~ Kelly Rae Roberts*

"Our truest life is when we are in our dreams Awake." (~Thoreau)

Happy New Year! We are four days into a new year, a new decade. I feel I am at the beginning again as it seems I've been away for a while. The first few days I felt a bit off, a little flat. Must have been the full moon or the underlying expectation of the first day of the new year needing to feel different somehow. I am currently rolling with the days and am experiencing more connection. I definitely notice my mood drops and the emotional waves rise up when I don't take enough time for myself to be alone. Writing in a journal always helps me make that deep connection I crave as does sitting in silence. I am making time to attend more classes, which certainly aids in uplifting and aligning my soul.

Things are good. Jason and I took some time to do this writing exercise I got from a book I received for Christmas titled, "Life Lessons~ Mastering the Law of Attraction~ 7 Essential Ingredients for Living a Prosperous Life." The exercise asks you to see yourself one year from today and get a vision and idea of that. "If you could have anything you want and NO possible way to fail, what would it be? What do you most want for yourself? When you look back on this period of your life, what do you want to remember? What experiences do you wish to have? What accomplishments?" Then, you are to put what you wrote away in a place you will remember and pull it back out one year later to see what you've manifested.

It's a fun exercise and it really gets your dream engine running. The point is you are supposed to let yourself run with this idea and see yourself and your life as you really want it. When you think of your life and about what brings you joy and makes your hair stand on end that is it! You must feel what you want all over... It has to be more than a thought. You have to Feel It and Believe in the Possibility of it all.

I don't mean to imply that just because you change your mind and you get a clearer vision that these things will change overnight or even in a weeks time, nor am I suggesting that it will be without some effort on your part. All I know is that it is possible to have the life you dream and a life that is beyond what you can even imagine. How do I know this? I don't know that I have an answer for that per se but I do have an awesome example from my own life to share.

One of the best and biggest examples is when I had that flash of insight, a vision of owning and running my own yoga studio. I was pregnant at the time. I couldn't get the thought out of my mind and there was a part of me that new this was crazy to be taking on with a baby on the way. Nevertheless, I set to work writing a business plan, getting a logo and a clearer vision of what I wanted to create. I looked at spaces and even brought my friend, Marlene, along to check out my favorite spots. Long story short... I had done all the work, completed the business plan, had the name and logo, wrote out the class descriptions, found the studio, and researched places for props and clothes. All the details where in order. There was only one major component missing. The money. I didn't have any start up money and did not think a bank would want to loan me that money. I remember spending a fair amount of time praying and pondering on where the money would come from. I had no answer but I did have a whole lot of faith. That faith served me well. I remember one day, while 7 months pregnant, sitting in my car outside the studio space feeling a little discouraged about the money thing. Then, I just reminded myself or Spirit reminded me not to worry about the financial means. The money will come and it did. The next day, I got a call from someone we did not even ask for money from. A woman I had recently met through my husband called and said she had heard what we wanted to do, what we were trying to do and they wanted to offer us a loan. No questions or credit check required. This amazing couple believed in us and what we were trying to do and loaned us the money. The studio, Luminous Lotus Yoga, opened on June 25, 2006, less than 4 months before Liam's arrival. I loved the studio and hope to one day run and own one again. It was a fantastic experience.

So the point of this whole story is that it is possible to manifest what your heart desires especially if it is in alignment with the highest good of all. I know this to be true because I am living proof.

It's good to look back over things because I realize that a lot of challenges over the last couple of years or three is due to the fact that I have been questioning the way in which the road of my life turned. I was settled in the Springs and loved what I did. When we moved here to Tucson, I really did not understand the change or the directional shift. I am clear on the reasons now. In fact, I am finally coming out of the hard stuff and into a better place, into that place of feeling free to dream again and rethink my life. I have an inkling that this is yet another time of growth and change for the better. Then again, come to think of it, it seems the last few years have been part of this whole evolutionary process. Glad I am able to recognize that.

Well, this entry is much longer than I thought it would be. Perfect.

Anyway, I hope those of you who read this will try the above mentioned exercise. If you feel up for it, please share your thoughts on the process with me.

Here's to dreaming big and flying high in 2010,

Marcia