Feeling the Flux
"How different our lives are when we really know what is deeply important to us, and keeping that picture in mind, we manage ourselves each day to be and to do what really matters most." (Stephen Covey)
This past week or so I have been feeling the flux, riding the everyday waves as they rise and fall. Each day is different but in many ways the same. I feel pretty good at this stage in my pregnancy, a little tired from time to time, but good in most ways.
I am definitely experiencing some changes in my body. Some days when I practice, I feel solid and strong. On other days, I feel a bit weak and have to really work hard to keep the integrity in each and every pose. I am finding that, even at this stage, it is necessary for me to change my approach to my practice.
When I was pregnant with Liam, I felt good but was also in this space of feeling like I needed to prove that things were the same, when, well, they weren't. It was almost as if I thought I had to uphold this idea and image of myself as being a super yogini, just as strong and capable as when I wasn't pregnant. I guess on some level I felt like I had something to prove. I don't feel that way now. Though, there is this side of me that wants to continue on as I have, the other side, the wiser, more aligned side of me knows better. This time in my life is about enjoying this experience of growth in change on all levels because that matters to me.
My body, my strength, my mental clarity, all these things will return with some patience and work on my part. In the meantime, I am to work with what is. I intend to stay in my heart and maintain my connection to myself, my baby, my body. And everyday I remind myself to remember and know what matters most to me, and I go for that.
I know that I will be transformed by this experience in ways that I cannot even imagine. All I have to do is embrace and love every moment of this journey.
In the Current Moment,