Luminous Lotus~ This blog is a way for me to share my experiences and musings on life, motherhood and yoga and all that I am learning along the way with others.
My Sundays begin in the early morning quiet. I climb out of bed, pull on my pajama bottoms, open the blinds and curtains to let the light in, and head for the kitchen for coffee. I pour my coffee and then head back to my room to sit in the quiet to listen and feel into what it is I want to share or needs to be shared with the group on that day. This Sunday was the same. In addition to sitting, sipping my coffee, sitting quietly and listening, I felt the sudden urge to write. I could feel this ache in my heart, a tenderness that was rising to the surface. So I grabbed my pen and journal and listened. From there on out, I just try to keep up with the words I hear. Here's my entry: May 3, 2020 My heart is tender and aching for something, but I don't know what it is. Maybe I am feeling the tender emotions of the world this morning? Maybe there is a sadness in the air, a waiting, an atmosphere of worry hanging about that I am picking up on? Whatever it is, I feel it. ...
I'm sitting at home on a beautiful day. The first day of Spring. It's windy and bright outside. The clouds have fluff and are filling the sky with ever changing shapes. And the air outside is incredibly fresh after yesterday's downpour, making it the perfect first day of Spring. I want to tell you that I feel optimistic and good, but I find myself feeling so strange and unfocused since news of the Coronavirus broke. And the whole world is either under lockdown or self-quarantine. And for many of us, this is a massive change in our lives. Mine and my family's days are not not so different than usual. We home/unschool our kids already so that part is not different at all. But for a majority of the world, the whole family is home more than ever before, which I am sure is both great and slightly overwhelming. Since my family and I spend a lot of time at home anyway, you would think that this would not feel so strange to us. But it does feel strange. It all feels st...
I am tired, and I am frustrated. It has been a rough few days with massive and painful coughing fits that seem to occur as I am trying to eat. I am having to be very selective and careful with what I eat so as not to throw myself into a major coughing fit that will take the rest of the day to calm down. I guess the good news is that these fits have made it very clear to me that the issue I have been dealing with is in my esophagus. At least I am certain of that now. I think because every specialist I have seen has said my coughing had to do with my airways and respiratory system, I believed them because they are specialists in this field. I am not. But after the last few days of paying very close attention to what sets these coughing fits off, I am absolutely certain that my cough has to do with my esophagus. I am thinking that I have an acid issue or something called EOE (Eosinophilic Esophagitis). I don't know for sure and won't know until I can get an Endoscope done....
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