Luminous Lotus~

It's been well over a month since my last post.  I am not sure what I've been doing but know that I've been keeping busy.  Life with kids is like that.  Some days are a blur and then a day turns into a week and a week into a month before I know it.  So where shall I begin? I know, my upcoming trip... I am going out of town for a short bit to the East coast and cannot wait.  I am in need of a break from T-town, Tucson, and really want to see some fall colors.  I feel like I have not seen the fall season in years so am really looking forward to seeing colored leaves on the trees, feeling cool air across my skin, and hearing the sound of leaves crunching beneath my feet.  Truth be told,  I have been feeling a bit run down and am in need of some rejuvenation and a jolt of joy.  Sometimes,  a change of scenery and a little travel helps with that.  I am hoping my trip will do just that, give me lift and jolt. I don't know ...

It's one of those rare, beautiful grey mornings here in Tucson where the smell of rain lingers in the air and there is a hint of coolness on the breeze.  It feels fresh and clean outside.  The house is quiet with Lila sleeping and Jason off to work and Liam at school.  I've got some dishes in the sink to clean, some laundry to fold and a bed to make, but I don't feel like doing all that right now.  I want to write.  I want to sit and enjoy the sound of my fingers tapping on the key board. I've got a lot on my mind lately.  I feel a creative surge of sorts coming on and a need to express myself in some way. I'll start with writing first.  I have had some great insights lately about several things. I'll share one. The other day while I was waiting for students to arrive,  I was looking around at all the books and such at YO's central studio.  I had this realization that even as I appreciate the vast world that is yoga with it's philosophy...

Here's a little story... I April of 2004,  I moved from Arizona to Colorado Springs where Jason and my new life were waiting for me.  I had just completed my 8-month long Anusara immersion and teacher training, at that time they were one and the same, and  I was ready to dive into teaching.  Just before I moved to Colorado,  I was perusing the Internet for Colorado Springs Yoga studios late one night and found one that looked promising.  Spring Street Yoga was the studio that caught my attention and, as it turned out, was a wonderful place.  As I was looking over the web page and clicking on each tab,  I hit the contact tab and immediately felt compelled to compose a note, so I did.  In that note that I sent to the owner,  I stated that I had just completed my Anusara teacher training and was moving into the area in a couple of weeks.  I asked if she had a need for any new teachers because I was interested in teaching at her studi...

It's been well over a month since my last post.  Things have been busy for the Tullous family.  Liam had surgery to remove his tonsils and adenoids and had tubes put in ears about two weeks before school started.  Yes, it is true a new school year has begun.  Liam is a full-fledged kindergartner.  The school years have arrived and with that a new phase for all of us complete with a new routine and time in between.  Jason was out of town twice in the last month and then had an outpatient surgery of his own. I guess you could say that life is in full swing.  What I am including in this post is something that I wrote three days ago in my journal.  I think what follows is worth sharing.  Read on and enjoy! **************************************************************************** August 20, 2012 Life has felt pretty  heavy and dull to me lately.  Heavy with responsibility and dull from doing all of the have tos and not enough...

We are all weavers of the same web, using the same silk thread, working together to create this world we live in and are a part of.  Each one of us must contribute because each and every one of us brings something vital and useful into the world.  Simply put, the world would not be the same without you. Bring your gifts out into the light and weave your magic thread into the whole. 

Here it is,  11 in the evening and I really do mean to be sleeping. Every one else is asleep and the house is quiet.  These moments to me are precious, though.  Even with what little sleep I've had lately,  I have to make time to sit with myself, or I simply don't feel right and it is hard for me to function.  Besides,  I have too much on my mind to sleep.  That said, I will keep this short and write more over the coming days.   Today is June 8, 2012.  My daughter, Lila, was born one year ago today.  The picture above is how our first meeting began.  It was a rough, unexpected beginning to say the least.  Of course, that makes my very peaceful pregnancy that much sweeter.  Lila told me a lot about herself while in utero. She shared with me her lighthearted essence and her love of nature.  She wiggled and moved and swam around in her watery world constantly, which gave me some clue as to her active, energetic ...

A BIG let go~  I let go of my Anusara-inspired status and of further pursuing certification.  I haven't written a formal letter to Anusara to share my decision and don't know that I need to.  I simply chose not to pay my annual dues.  I have thought about calling and paying every day for the last two weeks so that I could buy myself a year of wait-and-see what becomes of Anusara.  However, every time I would tell myself I needed to call and pay, something in me would just stop.  I just couldn't find the motivation to pay.  I guess I am not compelled or convinced of anything as far as Anusara goes.  I don't mean this in a negative or critical way.  It simply comes down to how I feel on the inside. As I would ask and sit with the question of " should I stay?" or "should I go?", the answer I get is, "let go".   Things just feel so different to me and, well,  they are.  The way I see it is that a change is a change no matter ho...