Wednesday, October 28, 2009

Answering the Call

Last week, during class, I shared this piece written by Oprah about figuring out who are you meant to be: "I believe there's a calling for all of us. I know that every human being has value and purpose. The real work of our lives is to become aware. And awakened. To answer the call."
In this most recent O magazine there is whole segment on "Who Are You Meant To Be?". This section includes contributions by a variety of writers who discovered who they were meant to be by making mistakes and learning from them. Authors such as Anne Lamott, Mary Karr, Junot Diaz, and Uwem Akpan shared their story. The pieces submitted are beautiful, real, and worth reading.
I do realize that this a big question to ask but really just wanted to hear the student's reply and perspective. I suppose I brought this up because it has been on my mind a lot and for a long time. I am of the belief that each person IS born with a unique gift and purpose and that once you discover what that is for yourself, then things begin to come together or they fall apart and then come together.
On Sunday morning, the conversation was great albeit brief. Everyone in the room was really honest and willing to share. I loved the varied perspective and could definitely empathize with the frustration some were feeling because of being in the contemplation and concealment phase of their lives of trying to figure out the answer to this very question.
So here is what came up, the points made during our conversation...
We all agreed that some people are born into the world knowing their purpose and are aware of their unique gift or gifts from the get go while others have to figure this out by realizing what they are not. We also discussed the idea of who you are meant to be or thought you would be can change as you change. Another great point was the question as to whether or not your job is the same as your calling, which was confusing for many. My thought on this is that for some the answer to whether your job is your purpose is yes. While for others, the answer is no.
As our conversation continued, someone brought up the fact that some people never figure out their calling. To which I replied, "Why do you think that is?" Is it because they simply missed or ignored the signs directing them to their highest, or is there purpose to live this life as they are living it? As you can see, this is a rich and thoughtful topic.
The conclusion that I have come to and hold dear to my heart is this...
I think it is easy to get caught up in the have-to' s versus the love-to's and get confused on what the difference is. And along the way, we may loose sight of what matters most all because of a genuine and understandable concern about our livelihood and about what we think we are supposed to be doing versus what we feel soul-driven to do. Yes, it is important to be able to provide and care for your family and/or yourself, but it's not everything. I absolutely believe it is possible to both do what you love and get paid for it. It really is creative endeavor. Your life and happiness that is.
I will close with a quote by Anne Lamott and add to it.
Anne Lamott writes, "You have to make mistakes to find out who you aren't. You take the action, and the insight follows: You don't think your way into becoming yourself."
Ultimately, you find your way to the truth of who you are and what you love by trial and error. You give yourself and your life a chance. I feel strongly that if you pay attention to the things that bring you joy and make you feel good at the soul level, you will be guided right. Meaning that as you go for that which brings you joy and makes a difference in the world on either a small or large scale, you'll realize your gifts and know in your bones that something magical and beautiful that only you can offer.
Let me be clear, just because we go for what we love does not mean that all of our days are sunny and bright nor does this mean that the path there is an easy one to travel. However, what I do know is that you will have the strength and courage to carry on despite the difficult moments you may face. I think that when you follow the longing in your heart no matter what, you will be granted an infinite amount of courage and determination to reach the highest point. After all, the sky is limit. How far is that? I don't know. I'll let you know when I figure that out. ;p
Keep on keepin' on,

Sunday, October 11, 2009

Matters of the Heart and the Art of a Good Life

Been meaning to write more often than I have. I think I am in that place where things are shifting but trying to take it all in. Actually, both Jason and I are experiencing a shift and a desire for change.
So a few days ago, Jason and I had this great conversation about what it is we desire for ourselves, each other, our family and our life together. We both took some time to think about and write down what is we really want and what it is that matters most to us individually and collectively. Intention and looking at the big picture makes a difference in the way things can and will go. Taking time look honestly at life offers the chance to see what is and what is not working and move forward from there. I am grateful Jason and I are wanting a lot of the same things. In fact, it's a relief. What we want, what our hearts desire is: balance in life; being able to find joy in the little things; passion in love and life, work we love and that makes a difference in the world in some way; cultivating more creativity; getting paid to do what we love; a way to work together; making a home that is a haven; financial freedom.
The list just given isn't everything but is the bulk of what we spoke of and shared. We are in that place where we are working toward letting go of the things that no longer serve us in order to make room for more of the good. Of course, I don't want to loose sight of the good that is already present in our lives, nor do I want to forget how fortunate we already are.
However, I sometimes feel like there is an element missing, some thing, some other talent or resource for the greater good that I am overlooking. I haven't figured this out yet. All I know is I feel this in my soul. I know the next piece of the puzzle will be discovered when the time is right. Even though I know this, I catch myself looking around and trying to figure it out. I suppose this is my impatient side, the let's-get-on-with-it side of me. In some ways I feel like I am not doing enough to figure it out, but maybe it's not for me to figure out. Maybe, it's just time to be and let the next step come to me.
In the meantime, how do we go about creating more of what we want while still appreciating what we've got? How do we go about making the highest vision a reality? I suppose the first step is the honest look at things. Sorting it all out into piles of keep or let go. From there, we focus on getting a clearer vision of the life we want. See it. Feel it. Believe it. Continue to make positive changes and make time to do what brings us joy and a sense of steadiness. Finally, continue to practice patience. After all, a good life is a work of art. And it takes a decent, dedicated amount of time to create something beautiful.
Besides, all good things require some work, a lot heart, and an unwavering faith that all IS coming! I have to remind myself to keep plugging along and make the most of where I am at this time so that I may enjoy my life as it is now. Otherwise, I may overlook what is right in front of me and fail to notice that a lot of what I want is already here. Of course, even as I appreciate what is, I recognize that things will further change and that there is always room for improvement and space enough to think big and dream big!
Pacing myself,

Monday, October 5, 2009

You never know what's waiting around the corner for you... More surprises are yet to come!

Three weeks later and here I am at the computer. It's late and should head to bed. The soon-to -fade full moon has me awake. I love the harvest full moon and all the changes that seem to come in October. I am not sure why that is, it just is. In October is when I observe the season of summer turn into fall: the sky changes, clouds are more plentiful and interesting, the colors in the sunsets change, the air feels cool and fresh, and the wind seems to facilitate the cycle of change, bringing in the new and blowing out the old.
October 15 marks 2 years we, Jason, Liam, and I, have been in our little house in Tucson. This date, which is fast approaching, may be the reason for my feeling the bubbling of beginnings. I sort of get the feeling something new is on the horizon, maybe a shift in my perspective, an unexpected offer of sorts, a letting go of things that no longer serve me, a coming into my own.
I suppose this feeling I have of it being a time of new beginnings could be anything really. It doesn't matter, it's the feeling I appreciate. I love that internal experience of hopefulness and curiosity about what is to come. I love that place of anticipation when I am open to whatever is on the way but making sure to put out their what it is my heart desires.
Maybe celebrating Liam's third birthday also makes me a bit nostalgic. He has changed so much in just one year. Liam is getting so big and can communicate so well. He is still sweet and cuddly, and I want to cherish these moments as long as I can. I suppose his birthday marks more change for us all.
I believe good things happen in the fall.
It is a good time for us all to think about what we truly want and plant the seeds of desire in our hearts. Time to turn over the soil, rest, wait, awake.
In the light of the full moon, all that is possible is visible.
Love La Luna,