Luminous Lotus~

Lila is 21 days old or 3 weeks old today and doing great.  She is a very sweet baby and is pretty easy to soothe. Here at the Tullous household we are all adjusting to life as a family of four and slowly settling into a rhythm.  Things are mostly good with an occasional rough day thrown in the mix.  I have, of course,  hit the wall of tired but am surviving.  The good news is that Lila is starting to sleep for longer stretches between feedings at night and that helps.  Liam is doing pretty well with things for the most part, and we all seem to be recovering from our rough start and stint in the hospital. He does have his days where he seems to want and need more of my time and attention, and I do my best to be available and present with him.  Liam loves his little sister and wants to touch her, kiss her and hug her constantly.  In fact, we have to remind Liam to give her a little space especially when Lila is tired and trying to go to sleep...

I am sitting in the NICU at UMC here in Tucson trying to make sense of the last few days, but I don't think that that is going to happen.  All I can say is that it's been an epic week.  On June 8, 2011, 30 hours after labor began,  Lila June Tullous was born at 8:33 a.m. weighing in at 8 lbs. 8 oz. and 18.5 inches long.  I would say that my labor experience was really good up until the end when things changed suddenly and abruptly.  Even though the labor was long, things were going well and pretty much the way Jason and I had hoped things would go with laboring at home for a long time and having the most supportive people around us.  I was in the pushing phase of labor when my uterus ruptured, when my uterus tore along my previous c-section scar line and then tore down to the right in a j shape.  With my uterus torn in two places and with the stress of labor, the placenta then detached from the uterine wall.  Fortunately,  my doctor a...

I am 39 weeks and at the end of my pregnancy.  It's been pretty quiet this last week.  I taught my last class until August 2 last Thursday and am just staying close to home.  Mostly, I've spent my time doing the last bit of preparing before this baby arrives and resting in between. Everyday, I feel little changes in my body as it prepares for labor.  I feel highs and lows in my energy as one day I feel the desire to do a lot and the next, I feel like doing nothing at all.  It's strange not to be headed off to class to teach but am enjoying a little break before it gets really busy.  I can't complain.  I miss seeing people at the studio but they are always close at heart, and I will be back at it in no time. I am now at that point where I feel ready to meet this little one.  I have enjoyed this pregnancy and think this is just such an amazing experience.  And even though I have been pregnant before and loved being pregnant with Liam, thi...