Luminous Lotus~

Well,  I guess it's been a while since my last post.   The month of October is nearly over,  and I am glad.  It's been a hard, awkward month. Then again, come to think of it, it has been a hard year.  I feel like I am just moving over the hard edge into something new, or at least I hope that is the case. Teaching has been different and, at times, felt strange.  Mostly,  I  am taking things one class at a time.  I have just decided to put the last teacher training and the information from that experience on the back burner.  I feel more like I need to just let myself absorb the information from that training before I try to do anything with it.  I have decided just to show up and teach how I teach. I am trying to teach without my mind getting in the way so much with all the things I am supposed to be doing because, let's face it, that sort of kills the process for me.  I figure what I need from what I have learned recently and...

It's Thursday morning, the first day following the end of teacher training 2.  I am in a tired but quiet place and for that I am grateful.  It feels sort of the like the calm after the storm.  I feel some relief but am also still feeling a bit thrown by my experience.  I am not even sure if it is a good idea for me to write and try to process some of the last 6 days or not, but I feel the desire to write so will write. It is now Saturday morning and I still feel zapped energetically.  I have a lot on my mind.  I have spent the last few days trying to understand my experience during this last teacher training. I still don't know what to make of it all. The good news is I did learn a lot and the people who made up the group of 50 are really beautiful people.  I was in good company and that is one of my favorite parts of teacher trainings, immersions and workshops.  Usually, though I leave these events feeling inspired, energized, uplifted. ...