Friday, July 29, 2011
It's Friday afternoon and quiet for a moment. I rarely have time these days to sit down and write or do much for myself for that matter. I think I forgot that you don't have time to get much done with a newborn. We spend most of our days at home, in doors at the moment. I do try to go on a quick 30 to 40 minute walk with the dog and get a shower in before Jason leaves for work most mornings and that helps put me in a better head space. Sometimes the days seem long and go slow and at other times they seem to go fast. The days are full of nursing Lila, playing with her and then getting her back to sleep. In between here short naps, I get Liam and myself something to eat and we play while we can, and then I try to wash the dishes or get some laundry done. There never seems to be enough time for anything. I simply do what I can.
The good news is that Lila is awake for longer periods of about an hour before she is ready to sleep again. She is smiling and trying to talk and communicate with oohs and ahhs. It is fun to see her take in more of the world and try to interact. I still find it hard to do more with and for Liam, and I feel bad about that. The pool is out of commission for the moment as it has a hole and we are missing play time in the pool. It's fine though because Liam would rather have someone be in the pool to play with him. I can't blame him. It's too hot to go for bike ride/ walk outside right now, so we are watching way too much T.V. The past couple of days we have had the T.V. on a lot because Liam has been sick so that's understandable. I wish I could say this is easy but it's not and some days I go a little crazy with being home so much. I know this is all temporary and we will find our way. It's all a matter of getting used to my life as it is now and not as it used to be. A new normal is emerging.
I dropped off a few items at Yoga Oasis the other day and walking into the studio felt so good. I didn't really want to leave. I am looking forward to getting back to teaching but am a little nervous too. I know that finding time to prepare a class and teach will be a challenge at first but am sure I will figure it out. I am thinking I will need to pick a day to plan out my classes for the week so I can spend the time before class practicing. I think that would be a better use of my time instead of scrambling and trying to come up with something to teach and try to squeeze in a practice too. Time is everything especially when you feel like you don't have much of it. Having kids and a family definitely changes the game of life a bit.
I guess that about sums things up for now. It's not very exciting but it is real. We are slowly adjusting to life together and some days are good and some days are, well, hard. It's all part of the process of change I suppose.
Here are a few more pictures. Enjoy!