What you are looking at is a picture of , as Jason put it, our family's next big adventure. Yes, this is a picture of baby number 2 in utero at 12 weeks and 3 days with its little hand up near its face. Amazing isn't it?!
It was such a relief to hear the baby's heartbeat yesterday and see that the baby is thriving and doing well. I felt like I was in a holding pattern with this pregnancy due to the fact that the last two have not been viable. I didn't want to get too excited for obvious reasons. Now that we have made it to this point, I feel like I can breathe a sigh of relief and let go into the experience. The risk of a miscarriage at 12 weeks with the baby being healthy is only 1 or 2% . The statistics are nice to read but the good feeling I have inside is an even better indicator of this being a happy, healthy pregnancy.
It is so nice to actually be able to enjoy this experience now instead of feeling I am waiting to do so. In about 6 weeks or so we will get to find out whether this little bean is a boy or a girl. My feeling is that it is a girl. I say this because I keep calling it a "she". I haven't had any dreams during this pregnancy yet. However, I did have a dream during my last pregnancy of a little girl with lots of dark brown hair and big brown eyes. She was a happy baby in my dream. I will be sure to share any dreams I have of this little one. So far my dreams are just plain weird.
All in all, I feel good. Jason is back home from Costa Rica and things have slowed down, which is a nice change. It is hard to believe that the holidays are here and the end of the year is near. I have much to reflect on over this past year as it seems a lot has happened. 2010 has been a wild ride and not an easy one. To be honest, I am ready to say so long to this year and open myself up to what is next to come.
So here I am making the most of the moment, welcoming our next big adventure, and loving every minute of it all.